Not again??

My prediction came true. It’s unfortunate, it’s devastating. Today is my 4^th day since AF arrives. I am almost clear and got spots from time to time. It is so odd talking about it. Too much information isn’t it. I just have to do this for the purpose of knowing how my journey of conceiving goes. From yucky to tacky! Bare it with me. You all know that this is part of being a woman.

I am looking toward another cycle to conceive naturally. I don’t know how the universe can give it to us or if there’s really magic. I wanted to have a baby. I really like to be pregnant before my birthday but yet it’s pretty unclear at this time. Nature doesn’t work on our side. We need medical help.

10th Day after Smiley

Well, there's nothing to really talk about these days. I am still on the waiting period. Today is my 10th day after I read a smiley face using OPK. I haven't really feel anything yet. Except I feel I am a little bloated and there's some tenderness below my belly and muscle on the thigh as well. I do feel this before my period. But strange enough, there's no breast tenderness. I guess it's a new change. Let's see if I can wait for 5 days to test or just wait until Aunt Flow arrives.

With the many tries of knowing whether I am pregnant or not, this month I don't feel I am in a hurry to know. I want to be positive whatever it is. Negative or positive I could take it. But it could be nice if it's positive. Only, I don't want to expect more. If I could not this time, I know there will be another way in the future.