4DPO

I'm not expecting anything this month since we've only did 2 baby dance which was 2 days before I got my positive OPK and on the day when I saw the smiley face again. I bought the clear blue digital ovulation kit and used it this time since I can't make up on the dollar store test. But actually the dollar store worked. On the day I got the positive, it looks like the same with Clear Blue. And the test line appear quickly. Now I know what to expect the next time.

Anyway, today I am feeling weird. I have this cramping on my right side for hours. It's too early for this cramps. Maybe I ovulated today? What? I don't know. It's hard to know when there's no ultrasound. If I am, then there's no way I could get pregnant. Well, I know in the first place it's hard when my partner has the problem. But yet, there's always miracle, right?

Also, I have the dizzy spell starting 2dpo. I was in SFO with friends on 2dpo. Well, I think it was the long wait and we were standing in line for more than an hour. With heat and anxiety to ride the cable car, I guess it hit me. I was also thankful I didn't faint. My my my, I don't know how will I be able to have the courage to see all people staring at me if I drop fall to the ground, LOL. Then also, I am suffering from UTI that I was holding myself not to grab liquids so I won't be in a rush to find restrooms. LOL.. It made my infection worst, though later on  I felt better when I was able to use the bathroom. Man, it was a crazy feeling...

Yesterday at 3dpo. All I have was slightly cramping on the right side. Nothing significant. I feel like normal. I may be cramping but it wasn't so intense. If I will do something, I won't remember the cramps.

Today, is a different story. Even writing at this moment I feel like my lower abdomen is being pulled. The under twinges is bearable. It is as if I have AF already. Also, I am a little dizzy. I never feel any of this before. I have some breast tenderness but I always and often have it during the 2 week wait. I don't consider it as a symptoms of being pregnant. But I don't know about this being dizzy. Or maybe, I am just tired and didn't have enough rest. Who knows it might be the cause. The past days, I didn't get much sleep as I want to. I don't want to jump at this as being pregnant. It's too early for that.

CD27

I didn't get my period yet luckily and I don't know when I got my LH surge. I suspected after I was rambling in the morning of CD21 about not getting a positive. That Afternoon, I tested the New Choice Ovulation Kit that I bought from the dollar store and I saw that the 2nd line or test line is close to the opacity of the control line. I had the feeling that perhaps or maybe that was my surge. I don't know. I had tested 3 already and all the results were ghostly can't barely see the test line but on the 4th test that I did on Cd21 in the afternoon was very much visible.

I hope it was so I would know when I could expect my period. If not, I will wait on CD29 this week and then for next week cd36 if my calculation is right. I am not expecting to be pregnant this month. I just want to know when I could get my period so I would know what to expect when I will start my IVF.

No OPK Positive (CD21)

I have been searching online if I could see anyone that experienced having egg white mucus that is longer than 3 days and then get their positive surge LH later on. I have not read none. All information I get was that younger girls do experience this, but not too often for ladies in their mid 30's.

I had made notes on my fertility calendar. Starting Sept 1 I had dry white mucus and I had the slightest egg white mucus on the 3rd. I used OPK to test one in the morning and afternoon, no positive result. I thought maybe I already missed my surge. But then on Friday afternoon Sept 6, I had a glue-liked mucus. It made me rethink the whole situation. Maybe I didn't ovulate yet. So I told hubby and we made the deed.

Saturday morning I used a cup and saw that the pee are mixed with mucus. It could be the remains from the deeds on the previous night. Both the morning of Saturday and Sunday I was hoping this could be it but no it didn't. Freaking out, I intend to constantly check everytime I went to the bathroom if I could see a change of mucus.

Then again on Monday Sept 9, I see the egg white again. I had bad cramps middle of the day and it went on and off all day. I tested twice morning and afternoon, nothing! The more I test, the test line is disappearing. I wonder what this is all about.

Yesterday, same thing happen I have cramps on and off but it went a little stronger in the evening. I still have the egg white mucus and tested nada! What the heck! I already tested 10 times for the past several days and I got no + result. I ran to the dollar store in the afternoon to get some more tests. I didn't have the same kit but I viewed youtube and they have pretty good reviews on the brand. So I feel that it will be the same usage like the other predictor kit I had used previously. Anyway, I made sure to test. The same thing happen, no surge.

And today, I didn't test early this morning when I took a shower. I decided I will not waste my time. I already missed my surge that's what I thought. But here comes the egg white mucus again in full force at around 10:30am at work. I didn't bring any test pack. There's no way for me to determined if this is ovulation or what. I am confused and perplexed. When I get home today, I will test and see if I could see something different from my other test.

This whole thing is weird, did I miss my surge or I am ovulating today... 

Positive Ovulation Cycle for the Year

Here's my cycle for the year and corresponding positive LH surge.

2012 December 29 - day 14 - period Jan 13 (15)
2013 January 30 - day 18 - period Feb12 (13)
2013 March 2 - day 19 - period March 17 (15)
2013 April 6 - day 21 - period  April 21 (15)
2013 May 12 - day 22 - period May 26 (14)
2013 June 12 - day 18 - period June 26 (14)
2013 July 8 - day 13 - period July 24 (16)
2013 Aug 7 - day 15 - period Aug 22 (15)
2013 Sept 10 - day 20 - period Sept 23 (14)

In average my LH surge is in between 14th-15th every cycle. Somehow my ovulation day varies from day 13-22. It's hard when you are irregular you can't really tell which day. All I have been doing is using the ovulation predictor. The kit really helps big time as to when to BD and do the deed.

TTC with Clomid

This is my last cycle with Clomid. Husband and I decided to proceed to IVF. I have my consultation next month Aug 12. So basically if we want to we could have 1 more natural ttc and we will go from there. But it's quite stressful for us these days. It's hard to concentrate on the baby making.

But here's my Two Week Wait this cycle: 100mg clomid June 28 

+ OPK - July 8 ( Bd July 6 and July 9 not a perfect timing )

1dpo - tired and sleepy
2dpo - tired and sleepy
3dpo - was so sleepy all day since we were traveling on a plane to get to California from the Bahamas, keeps peeing all the time
4dpo - peeing endlessly, breast throbbing/twinges, thigh cramping, mild abdominal cramps, bloated
5dpo - AF cramps, breast throbbing, dry white mucus on panty
6dpo - watery white milky mucus, cramping, both breasts throbbing, peeing frequently
7dpo - watery white milky mucus, AF cramps very similar to period at 6pm, nipples itchy, boobs throbbing and bloated
8dpo - thigh cramps feeling like I am having a period, bloated, breast tenderness, cramps right side 11:10am
9dpo - nothing unusual, Af cramps, itchy breast, full breast feeling, bloated
10dpo - nothing unusual same 9dpo symptoms except for distinctive itchy nipple(first time), throbbing right breast 1:00pm
11dpo - AF mild cramps
12dpo - AF mild cramps
13dpo - tender breast poking on the left side. Af mild cramps. Nipple painful when touched. Almost vomited at 10pm. It's so weird
14dpo - body temperature early dawn is warm not able to sleep well while full breast feeling so uncomfortable, AF cramps more on the right side, no AF yet in the morning. Throbbing pain on right ovaries none stop starting at 10pm and headache.
15dpo - Thigh Af cramps but no sign of AF yet. Throbbing pain stopped at 7am.
16dpo - AF arrives.

Signs of Ovulation

I tested with wondfo twice yesterday.  Not clear positive in the morning and negative on Clearblue. I noticed I had egg white transparent CM later on during the day. The abdominal cramp started to happen early afternoon. Similar kind of feeling when I have a cramp before my period. I suspected I might have ovulated. The egg probably released. I tested with WONDFO and got 2 solid lines. I told hubby when he got home and did the BD before we slept. I hope we got the perfect timing.

Today I got a smiley face on Clearbue and 2 solid lines with WONDFO. Yay! One more BD I guess.

I would not really hoping for the best but I hope it could work. Miracle do happen anyway. If it's my time, God will lead me the way.

Somehow today, I feel this weird twinges on my left and right abdomen. It's very annoying. It's as if ants is crawling under your skin. Do you know how that feels? You try to rub it hoping it will go away but it's there for a time poking on and off.

I have itchy and twinges on the side of my left breast too. I was reading that it could be a sign that ovulation occur. I hope the deposits we had last night was enough to make this magic work.

What bothers me above other signs is the pain in my lower back. There is something going on with my body. It is my 2nd month to experience this pain.  It's very unusual. Now it feels like it's a burning pain but tolerable. I tried to massage it, the pain is bearable. I don't know. So weird. But let's see and wait.

Do you think it could be a sign? Who knows. If it's the case I ovulated today, I would start for my 2WW tomorrow. Cross fingers! Baby dust to everyone who will happen to read my blog.

List of Tests

Saturday afternoon, DH and I went to the lab to get our tests done.

Per instructed by Dr. W. These are all the doctor's order.

Rubella Screen
HIV Test
Hepatitis B Antigen Test
Hepatitis C Antibody Test
RPR
Luteinizing Hormone (LH)
FSH, Follicle Stimulating Hormone
Estradiol
US Pelvic and transvaginal Non OB ( need to reschedule on the 18th )

I didn't get the results as of this writing. I am hoping that everything is normal and we both are healthy.

On Sunday, OPK tested positive. Smiley face shines again :)

10th Day after Smiley

Well, there's nothing to really talk about these days. I am still on the waiting period. Today is my 10th day after I read a smiley face using OPK. I haven't really feel anything yet. Except I feel I am a little bloated and there's some tenderness below my belly and muscle on the thigh as well. I do feel this before my period. But strange enough, there's no breast tenderness. I guess it's a new change. Let's see if I can wait for 5 days to test or just wait until Aunt Flow arrives.

With the many tries of knowing whether I am pregnant or not, this month I don't feel I am in a hurry to know. I want to be positive whatever it is. Negative or positive I could take it. But it could be nice if it's positive. Only, I don't want to expect more. If I could not this time, I know there will be another way in the future.

Day 29th

I tested my first urine Saturday morning and finally I saw the familiar smiley face. It's nice to know that I am still ovulating but check out the day. It's beyond too normal. But normal to people who are irregular. My guess will be the travel and time change screwed my ovulation cycle. I hope and pray there could be some miracle happening soon.

I also made to confirm an appointment on the 16th of November to a very young doctor with 11 years of experience. I hope I am making the right choice of switching to her than my previous doctor. My previous doctor will also recommend me to an infertility specialists which the schedule will go as far as December. I can't wait 2 more cycles to waste. Maybe it's a sign that this new doctor will be the right answer to my problem.

Late ovulation

I don't know maybe with the travel, time change, exhaustion from last month's trip overseas and stress from work I am not ovulating fast. This will be my 2nd month today. I am expecting to see a smiley face from OPK's test which I did on the 15th day from day 1 of cycle. I am on day 21 and no smiley face yet. It's hard to do the timing for conception when irregular cycle hits again.

I have been taking prenatal DHA prescribed by the doctor and also my choice of using Fertility Blend in the hopes of getting my normal cycle. I am sure my travel overseas is the reason why my cycle is off. For the past 6 months my fertility cycle is between 17-25 but my most fertile days is commonly falls on 17-20. I hope to see smiley face again maybe tomorrow. I will cross fingers.