Side Effects Of Clomid

Each person has it's own experience and my experience with Clomid is a little too much. First 2 days was twitching of the abdomen, headache, and bloated. I just don't feel very good.

The worst day I felt was on the 4th day when the headache was too much. I had very short temper and I get frustrated so easily. I was thankful I didn't go to work because I used the day as my birthday off. It helped but I was really feeling awful.

The 5th day was bearable with some little headache but I was again short tempered. I felt bad having my friends see my worst mood. I had informed 2 of them that I don't know what will my mood was going to be and I was right. I also asked for an apology to some who noticed me because I just don't feel great. If I were to choose, I could have not pursue the party because I know I will not be so bubbly.

But hey if they are your friends, no matter what they can understand what you are going through.

For the past days, all I noticed was I suddenly began to feel depressed. Oh my! This is not going to be so good. I wanted to be happy and all but sometimes I just can't. But I am hoping this will go away and that I will think positive again.

2nd day of Clomid

I took it at the same time and the side effects are doing it's thing. My lower left abdomen is twitching again that it makes you really uncomfortable. I had this feeling when I am about to have AF like 10 days before my period. I got some tender breast too. A little light headache which I don't like but bearable. With this boost to ovulate this is all it takes. I can take it.

This discomfort is nothing when trying to have a baby. I would do everything to make it happen and to pray as well. I wish all the IUI patient like me would be granted their wish as the year ends. I wish and hope that my new year would start a wonderful chapter of my life. No negative thoughts here, all for positive. :)

First day of Clomid

Well, as the title say it's my first day today. I took it in the morning at 10:30am. The clinic said to take 1 Clomid straight to 5 days and it should be taken the same time each day. I was supposed to take it in the evening because I know I will have some side effects about the pill. But because I have a birthday party coming up on Saturday and might forgot to take it at night, I decided just to bare all the effects of the medicine in the morning.

So far at this time of writing 5 hours after I took it, I have some twitching on my left abdomen. It seems like PMS to me. Due to the fact I still have my AF, I can't really determine if the pill is working it's formula trying to wake up my tired ovary or if it's the period acting up.

I have never been into vitamins and medicine for several years. I will update to what this medicine will do to my body.  All about healthy living and eating good. I only started taking prenatal vitamins since November 2011 because of TTC as doctor advised.

I hope and think positive about this outcome. They said visualize technique helps to create positive effects. I will do that. It's all about happy thoughts.

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Also, I was not advice to do blood work (b/w) today. Supposed to be I will go to the lab on 3rd day of cycle. With not much knowledge and confusion, I went early. Now I figured it out. Even though it was earlier, I got the result and I think it was a perfect timing. I was glad I did it because it gave me a clear vision on the status of my condition. Better to know the result early than knowing late when I am starting the process.

I asked the doctor through email if I need b/w done since I already had it very recently. ( The email was so efficient. I can get straight answer to the Doctor. Bravo to that. I salute you. ) She said in the email that it's not necessary for me to go and instead will just wait for a follicle scan and ultrasound next week. yay, I skip! Praise heavens.

She also mentioned not to schedule the pelvic scan yet. It was listed in my order list which I actually reminded her. She wanted me to wait until the on-call doctor would tell me on the day of the ultrasound to schedule for it. Oh well! As you see I am have been passing along these doctors. From Sunday to an oncall and ultrasound to another on-call..My my my! But it will not hinder me of doing this.

Honestly, I don't like to use another doctor to do this procedure but what can I do, primary physician is not on duty and I don't want to miss this cycle.

December is a happy month for me since I am December baby. I will be thinking positive. Please make it work.

Here it comes

I called on Sunday though the office is closed. An on-call doctor was able to spoke to me and very much pleased that I wasn't turned down. She was able to prescribed me Clomid as what my primary physician told me to take.

I made a follow up call today just to make sure that my primary doctor was aware that I called the office and that the dosage I will take is the exact amount she wants me to take. I don't want to mess this first cycle of doing the treatment.

I also given a date for ultrasound on the 28th at noon. That scares me actually. I hope everything's fine except that my ovary just needs a boost. I wish nothing could go wrong. Given the fact that I already am sad about the whole situation of me can't have a baby in the natural process.

I know it's 50 50 chance and I have limited insurance to cover this procedure. I will be positive about this ordeal that whatever happens we can accept the outcome. The best part of it all is we are given the chance and if chance won't happen at least there will be no regrets of not trying. I don't want to be negative about it. Life goes on and the world is a beautiful place to put a sad face.

Pretty Odd Ovary

I got a hard blow news from Dr. W yesterday. I was hoping that everything is normal under the circumstances. Everything is normal except she said that my ovary is getting tired. The ratio over the normal condition is reverse and it's pretty odd. She advised for treatment once I got my period.

I am really sad about it. I know I had a late start thinking about having kids but I didn't imagine I also have a problem. I am a 35 year old with a 38 year old ovary. How's that happen? Such abnormal issues. So it could mean I only have few chances of getting pregnant if miracle will work it's way too. Now, with everything. I just wish at least to have 1 baby. It will make a difference to my life and my husband.

Tests Received

I got an email days ago about the tests I did last Saturday. There was no message from the doctor. I guess everything is fine. Though I see one that concerns me. It has something to do about my LH result. I am over the normal range. I don't know medically how these numbers add up but all other tests are normal. There was no flags of red alert. Or just what it meant. I am anxious.

I can't confirm anything at this point. My doctor didn't say anything about it. I guess if there's any concern she might sent me an email or call me right away. Maybe, I am normal and healthy. My previous doctor did send me an email right away about my findings. I don't know if this new doctor is good. But I will let any negative thoughts aside. This is the person who is going to help me and I rely on her knowledge and experience. I sure do hope I am making the right decision of switching doctors.

UTI

The whole day yesterday I was feeling of bloated and I have left abdominal pain. I don't know what's going on. I felt so tired and I keep on dosing off at work. I tried to keep it together to make it to the day. I did and I went home straight.

As the night progress, past 9pm I was outside having dinner with hubby. I know it's late ha but we normally are taking dinner late. I asked hubby to come home because I felt that I am getting UTI. When it was 10, I can't take it anymore. I had to lay down to bed though I was not sleepy. I don't know what happen after that until I woke up at 11:30 to pee and there the excruciating pain. Deliberately it was so painful.

I had no cranberry juice stocked so I had no resort but drink water. I wasn't sure if it's going to help with the pain but I felt that I need to. All throughout the night, I was on and off in the bathroom and drank water to hydrate. Until the last time I remember waking up, I took tylenol because I can't bare the pain anymore.

Today, the pain is bearable when I want to go. I hope this is not going to get worst.  I think I am little more better that the feeling I have yesterday. Though I didn't get much sleep. I have more energy.

List of Tests

Saturday afternoon, DH and I went to the lab to get our tests done.

Per instructed by Dr. W. These are all the doctor's order.

Rubella Screen
HIV Test
Hepatitis B Antigen Test
Hepatitis C Antibody Test
RPR
Luteinizing Hormone (LH)
FSH, Follicle Stimulating Hormone
Estradiol
US Pelvic and transvaginal Non OB ( need to reschedule on the 18th )

I didn't get the results as of this writing. I am hoping that everything is normal and we both are healthy.

On Sunday, OPK tested positive. Smiley face shines again :)

Consultation for Infertility

The meeting with the doctor was fine. She was very accommodating and easy to talk to. But she talks so fast that I can’t remember all the details about it. Thank goodness she gave me an instruction paper on what to do on my next cycle. Nothing's going to happen this month but I have to wait again. It could be my last try for natural ttc. Who knows what the future holds right?

The recommendation is to do IUI in my 2^nd cycle. If I were 40, IVF will be good.  She said I don’t have to worry for now. I just have to complete all necessary tests and see what she can find. I am hoping all of the tests will be negative. Please Lord make it happen that everything will going to be okay for this coming tests and that I could go for IUI with no problem.

It’s also nice of the doctor to offer me to change my infertility consultation to abnormal bleeding so that my insurance can cover it. Most of the consultation will not be covered by insurance. So she put me down on something. Bless her heart. I am lucky. I hope I could be too with the procedure that I am going next month. I will cross fingers.

Not again??

My prediction came true. It’s unfortunate, it’s devastating. Today is my 4^th day since AF arrives. I am almost clear and got spots from time to time. It is so odd talking about it. Too much information isn’t it. I just have to do this for the purpose of knowing how my journey of conceiving goes. From yucky to tacky! Bare it with me. You all know that this is part of being a woman.

I am looking toward another cycle to conceive naturally. I don’t know how the universe can give it to us or if there’s really magic. I wanted to have a baby. I really like to be pregnant before my birthday but yet it’s pretty unclear at this time. Nature doesn’t work on our side. We need medical help.

Another Failed Attempt

I was so anxious to know so I checked this morning. BFN. What can I say? Have PMS sign though AF is not here yet but I can feel it will be either tomorrow or Saturday. Probably this will be our last natural way of TTC. Only then I can find out where do we have to stand on my appointment next week.

10th Day after Smiley

Well, there's nothing to really talk about these days. I am still on the waiting period. Today is my 10th day after I read a smiley face using OPK. I haven't really feel anything yet. Except I feel I am a little bloated and there's some tenderness below my belly and muscle on the thigh as well. I do feel this before my period. But strange enough, there's no breast tenderness. I guess it's a new change. Let's see if I can wait for 5 days to test or just wait until Aunt Flow arrives.

With the many tries of knowing whether I am pregnant or not, this month I don't feel I am in a hurry to know. I want to be positive whatever it is. Negative or positive I could take it. But it could be nice if it's positive. Only, I don't want to expect more. If I could not this time, I know there will be another way in the future.

Smiley Face count for the year

I haven't done to check really if what I said on the other post was correct. I have a menstrual cycle calendar in my Ipod. I will check right now what day smiley face fall in the months I was ovulated. This post is for my own record so I could remember.

Jan 16 - day 23 - period january 31 (15)
Feb 19 - day 20 - period march 5 (15)
March 22 - day 17 - period april 6 (15)
April 25 - day 20 - period may 11 (16)
May - none
June 1 - day 22 - period june 14(13)
June 30 - day 17 - period july 14 (14)
July 29 - day 16 - period august 12 (14)
August - none
September  15 - day 35 - period sept 29 (15 estimate) - Way to off due to travel
October 27 - day 29 - period nov 10 (14)
November - none
December 3 - day 23 - period dec 16 (14)

So base on the total for 6th months, I am fertile on the 19th day average of each cycle. As you can see from above September was the weird month. I thought I conceived. It was false hope. But if God work it's mysterious ways and give miracles I am hoping one day for my turn. I will be positive about it but if not I will live it all up to Him since he knows what's good for me.

Day 29th

I tested my first urine Saturday morning and finally I saw the familiar smiley face. It's nice to know that I am still ovulating but check out the day. It's beyond too normal. But normal to people who are irregular. My guess will be the travel and time change screwed my ovulation cycle. I hope and pray there could be some miracle happening soon.

I also made to confirm an appointment on the 16th of November to a very young doctor with 11 years of experience. I hope I am making the right choice of switching to her than my previous doctor. My previous doctor will also recommend me to an infertility specialists which the schedule will go as far as December. I can't wait 2 more cycles to waste. Maybe it's a sign that this new doctor will be the right answer to my problem.

Late ovulation

I don't know maybe with the travel, time change, exhaustion from last month's trip overseas and stress from work I am not ovulating fast. This will be my 2nd month today. I am expecting to see a smiley face from OPK's test which I did on the 15th day from day 1 of cycle. I am on day 21 and no smiley face yet. It's hard to do the timing for conception when irregular cycle hits again.

I have been taking prenatal DHA prescribed by the doctor and also my choice of using Fertility Blend in the hopes of getting my normal cycle. I am sure my travel overseas is the reason why my cycle is off. For the past 6 months my fertility cycle is between 17-25 but my most fertile days is commonly falls on 17-20. I hope to see smiley face again maybe tomorrow. I will cross fingers.

Semen Analysis

Done Oct 3 and result read on the 4th. The receptionist at the doctor's office called Oct 4th past 9am while I was at work. Mind blowing news, sperm count and shape normal but motility is low. In addition, they said they can't do anything about the motility. It just mean we are done with normal pregnancy. The next step will be IUI and IVF. I was advice to check on the coverage of our insurance and see how far we can do about this problem.

I've checked first Monday morning. We are covered with the insurance. Thank heaven. Now proceed to the appointment. Dang, appointment will be long dreaded over a month to wait. It's going to be 6 weeks to see the doctor.  Crazy to say when you have so many questions on your mind. You want to be hopeful and get start the ball rolling ASAP. But I am only left with nothing to do and frustrations sinks in when you can't do anything about it but to wait for your turn.

I don't know how the future will do for us but I am hopeful. Let's see how things could go in the next coming weeks.

What's with the Title, Not yet or What?

Plain few words you often mostly hear everyday. But this title speaks about the struggle of hearing the question "are you pregnant yet?". Its frustrating really. Oftentimes you respond too soon, not yet, maybe someday and other times you will answer in silence or a fake smile. You are already overwhelm with these question for so long you wish people would stop asking and bugged you about it. But hey you can't stop it. People are anxious to know and why not tell.

This blog is my journey to motherhood. There are so many if's right now. For now, all I can say is, "If I can bare a child or not". Follow me and help me relieve my struggle. It would mean a lot to know people in the community and people who have the experience of going to fertility treatments and motherhood.